Thursday, October 28, 2010

Madness with a smile

Ok life is very stressful right now, with Glen gone and just the kids and I home (something I've grown about as used to as one can be) and as much as I love being a Navy wife there are some days when I could do without the long lonely nights and the all to busy days, working long shifts and not feeling like I'm home when I should be to help with everyday tasks such as helping the kids with homework or cooking dinner. Cooking dinner can sometimes be easy thanks to whoever invented the crock pot. But homework is not such an easy task when I'm at work and they are at home. I'll tell you now it's not easy nor fun to try helping with homework through text messages believe me I know. So back to being without the Love of my Life all to often. So Glens on a boat. An enormous boat actually, large enough in fact 5,000 people can live on it for months on end. Any guesses? Thats right an Aircraft Carrier. i guess I shouldn't complain since now hes only leaving for weeks at a time, I just feel like the last year has been nothing less then chaotic. Last year ended with Afghanistan and this year started the same way. And if I must add the word on Afghanistan came on very short notice! So when he returned in April it was almost surreal that he was finally back in my arms on American soil, healthy and unharmed. That feeling of fulfillment was all to short bc the following month work ups started and ever since then it's been constant in and out. Home long enough start driving me crazy and gone far to long after I start missing him (usually within a day) so without a doubt however long he's gone it gets harder. Some say easier but I beg to differ on that one. Its the nights when I miss rubbing his stomach and the mornings when I miss his kiss before he leaves for work even though I'm usually still wrapped in my blankets asleep. All the times in between when I just want to smell his smell or see his smile, and lets not forget the times the grass needs mowed or something needs fixed. Generally I miss him always even when hes driving me insane asking me to change the line up of his (and half his friends) fantasy football teams, or to send him the score board since he can't get to it on the ships internet. When things are crazy and I feel like I'm ready to scream my husband is the one who helps me near or far to calm down and think of a plan. So with him beside me there may not be a method to my madness but it always comes with a smile.

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